Title: Truth Denied 27/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Near death, a little fear, you'll see.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1327 (As per Word 2007 Word Count)
Beta: purpledodah and laazikaat
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( They finally made it home, exhausted and worn after hours of police questioning. )
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Title: Truth Denied 26/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing much
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1822 (As per Word 2007 Word Count)
Beta: purpledodah and laazikaat
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I've been nominated at the Running With Scissors Award!! Under three different categories!! Best author, best WIP(Truth Denied) and best het with The Pack, my version. I am so flattered, whoever did this, thank you, I am so very very flattered.

( They finally made it home, exhausted and worn after hours of police questioning. )
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Title: Truth Denied 25/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13-R-ish (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Talk about character death and BDSM, not much else. Please let me know if I should put up something else.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1941 (As per Word 2007 Word Count)
Beta: purpledodah and laazikaat
X-posted to: perverted_pages, bloodclaim, btvs_lightsout, btvs_slash, btvsatsdotcom, darker_spike, spike_fics, sxandviolence, spanderslash, darker_vault, sickchicks, spike_xander, xander_slash, i_need_a_parrot, all_fics_btvs, nekid_spike
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( They finally made it home, exhausted and worn after hours of police questioning. )



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Title: Truth Denied 24/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... R (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Character death, not much else. Please let me know if I should put up something else.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2449 (As per Openoffice Word Count, haaaate this program)
Beta: jaxt99 and laazikaat
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A.N. Please don't kill me. Someone had to die off and this seemed like the perfect choice for the rest of the fic.



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( That didn’t mean Xander was looking forward to spending more time alone with the man! )



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Title: Truth Denied 23/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13 (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Not much for this chappie
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2076 (As per Openoffice Word Count)
Beta: tamakin and laazikaat
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( They lounged about in Spike’s changing room. )



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Title: Truth Denied 22/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13 Or possibly R (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Not much for this chappie other than boys dancing and touching each other. Yes, that's right, STRIPPING this chapter!
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1935 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin and laazikaat
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( They talked late into the night. )

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Title: Truth Denied 21/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13 Or possibly R (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Not much for this chappie other than talking about Spike's kinks and history (Again, lemme know if I'm wrong)
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 3128 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin and laazikaat
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( He was waiting for Xander in his apartment; glass of scotch swimming with ice clinked idly in his hand while he waited for the sound of a key in the lock. )

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Title: Truth Denied 20/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13 Or possibly R (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Not much for this chappie other than talking about Spike's kinks and history (Again, lemme know if I'm wrong)
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2084 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin and laazikaat
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( They lounged about in Spike’s changing room after getting off stage, waiting for the bouncer to come back with their bag of tips. )

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Title: Truth Denied 19/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13 (If I'm wrong, lemme know)
Warnings: Not much for this chappie(Again, lemme know if I'm wrong)
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2490 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin and laazikaat
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( It was all part of their negotiation package, but that didn’t mean he didn’t feel awful about having to make the call. )

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Title: Truth Denied 18/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... pg-13
Warnings: Not much for this chappie, just... uhh... graphic descriptions? Kinda... sorta.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1906 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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( He didn’t see the pensive look on Spike’s face, or the hungry stare while he walked to the bathroom for a shower. )

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Title: Truth Denied 17/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... R-ish
Warnings: Not much for this chappie, just... uhh... graphic descriptions? Kinda... sorta.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 3027 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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( If these dreams don’t stop soon I think I’m going to have to start drinking again. A lot of drinking. Enough drinking so I sleep and don’t dream anymore. )

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Title: Truth Denied 16/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing for this chappie
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2310 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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( ... this silence thing? It wasn’t as much fun as he’d thought it would be when Spike’d been tied to that horrid orange chair. )

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Title: Truth Denied 15/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing for this chappie
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2658 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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I've been nominated at The SunnyD Awards for Truth Denied for "Best Characterization" of Xander

YAY!! Nomination!! Thanks oh mysterious stranger!





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( An image came unbidden to his minds eye, brushing aside everything else. Spike, bruised and battered because he’d stood up to a hell god.  )

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Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing for this chappie
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1903 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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I've been nominated at The SunnyD Awards for Truth Denied for "Best Characterization" of Xander

YAY!! Nomination!! Thanks oh mysterious stranger!




( Spike bit back a possessive snarl, and the urge to drag him into the apartment and leave him chained up in the spare room. )

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Title: Truth Denied 13/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... R
Warnings: Death, not much else
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 3079 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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I've been nominated at The SunnyD Awards for Truth Denied for "Best Characterization" of Xander

YAY!! Nomination!! Thanks oh mysterious stranger!



( Sunset fell, and he knew it, even in the dark room. )

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Title: Truth Denied 12/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Can't think of a thing... huh...
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1745 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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( He may have kicked his nicotine habit, but he still had an oral fixation. )

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Title: Truth Denied 11/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13-ish
Warnings: Well, he talks a little more about what used to happen, so possibly triggering to anyone who's gone through it.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2280 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin
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( It’s alright. It’s gonna to be alright )

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Title: Truth Denied 10/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13 or possibly R for the subject matter
Warnings: Well, he talks about what used to happen, so possibly triggering to anyone who's gone through it.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2250 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin with some Spike help from limerickgirl. Thank you so much again!!! Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( Xander, you don’t have to lie to make me feel better... )

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Title: Truth Denied 9/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing in this short bit.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 567 (As per MS Word Count) It's a shorty, but I just couldn't post it any other way. Heh heh heh. Heeeeee heeeeee heeee. HAHAHAHAHA, ahem.
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( Heaving a sigh, he decided to take the bull by the horns and just say it. )

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Title: Truth Denied 8/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13
Warnings: Nothing in this short bit.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1577 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin with some Spike help from limerickgirl. Thank you so much again!!! Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( He was pretty sure his landlord was non-violent, but that didn’t mean there wasn’t a first time for everything. )

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Title: Truth Denied 7/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... Hard R. Possibly NC17, though doubtful
Warnings: Past abuse of the familial nature of the worst kind.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1248 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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A.N. ~ IMPORTANT!!!! I know I've said this before, but now is a good time to say it again. This is NOT A FLUFFY FIC. The boys will suffer and cry, there will be angst and past trauma's coming to light. There is non-graphic, but extremely traumatizing and easily triggering past abuse about to be mentioned. You have been warned, VERY clearly.


( Dreams rarely show us what we want to see... )

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Title: Truth Denied 6/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... R
Warnings: STRIPPING! Uh... Boy's touching! And... uhm... not much. I'm not used to having so few warnings.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1900 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( Well I am imagining, A dark lit place, Or your place or my place )

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Title: Truth Denied 5/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG13 with plenty of mentions of stripping and boys touching, and same sex attraction
Warnings: Boys lusting after each other, nothing really, I don't think.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1309 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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Now, for a little whining. Normally, I hate whiners, especially people who whine that they didn't get enough comments on their last entry, when they usually get well over a hundred. (okay, about half of them are replies to the comments, but dammit! That's still a lot of comments!) But the fact remains, the last chapter I posted I got no comments. Not one. Not a single one other than a person I know is posting coments on everything posted in her comm. The post before that? ONE COMMENT other than the person commenting on everything in their comm.

I think what it boils down to is, if you are reading it, enjoying it, hating it, PLEASE COMMENT! Let me know what artistic merits I lack, what I can improve on, what I should stay away from, what I'm good at, what I'm doing well at compared to my earlier attempts at fanfic, anything! I'm feeling a serious lack of lovin', and my muse is suffering because of it. You want to know the ending, don't you? I know I do! PLEASE comment!

( Whoa... bendy.... )

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Title: Truth Denied 4/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... Hard R
Warnings: Non-con, character death,
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 1735 (As per MS Word Count) (See?? WAY Shorter! Yay!)
Beta: tamakin Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( Regrets are like poisoned barbs, burrowing deep under your skin )

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Title: Truth Denied 3/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... PG
Warnings: This chapter… British slang swearing.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 2535 (As per MS Word Count) (See?? Shorter! Yay!)
Beta: tamakin Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( The pub was bustling with activity but with a discreet word from Spike they’d been seated away from the patrons in a private back section. )


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Title: Truth Denied 2/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... a soft R
Warnings: exhibitionism, GAY MEN!!!, angst, Death (talking about people they’ve lost)
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 3616 (As per MS Word Count) (DAMMIT! Was supposed to be shorter! I just… can’t decide where to cut it. SO SORRY, but it’s not that bad… I don’t think.)
Beta: tamakin, with some Spike help from limerickgirl. Thank you so much!!! Any errors are mine and mine alone.
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( Xander was still flapping his mouth like a guppy gasping in air, trying to say something, anything, to make the bartender just shut up for a second... )
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This won at the Running With Scissors Award!! Runner up under Cookie Dough Award (Best WIP)


I just started my newest WIP! It isn't going to be like my last WIP (not nearly as dark, for example) but it'll still have moments of heavy angst and I will be extremely careful to keep the warnings accurate. I'm trying something brand spankin' new, and I'm all apprehensive and stuff.

The first chapter is needfully long (seven pages, oi!) But every chapter thereafter will be markedly shorter. Trust me, I couldn't cut this without the damned thing making no sense (or by cutting out a REALLY HAWT SCENE!).

PLEASE give feedback! Please? Either here or e-mail it to me if for some reason you don't want to leave it on the post.

Also, you might want to DL this. Trust me, it comes up in this chapter and it'll be handy.Three Days Grace - Pain

Title: Truth Denied 1/?
Pairings: Spander (eventually)
Appropriate Ratings: NC17 overall but this chapter... a hard R I think
Warnings: exhibitionism, GAY MEN!!!, angst (gonna be so heavy on angst but I hope it won't take away from the story itself), not sure what else, but each chapter will have it's own warnings.
Disclaimers: Not my characters. I make no money off this, I'm just playing. I promise to give them a bath and thorough cleaning when I’m done! Joss Whedon is my lord and Master. All hail Joss Whedon.
Short Summary: About five years post NFA, Xander needs a job, like, NOW! And runs into someone he knows where he'd least expect it.
Word Count: 3449 (As per MS Word Count)
Beta: tamakin, any errors are mine and mine alone.
X-posted to: perverted_pages, bloodclaim btvs_lightsout, btvs_slash, btvsatsdotcom, darker_spike, spike_fics, sxandviolence, spanderslash, darker_vault, sickchicks, spike_xander, xander_slash, i_need_a_parrot, all_fics_btvs, nekid_spike
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( Where do we go, from here? )


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